I dont want to be a Billionaire i just want be normal :P

Enough of all the sorrow and past memories :P
Looking forward for the coming Chinese New Year as this coming Year of Dragon was a very special dragon year.. A very auspicious Year for every one.. No matter how sway were you in the past or like a salted fish turn here n there still cannot turn to a right side...

This is the year:P

no more thinking of bad situation or unhappiness jus keep a clear and positive mind set everything will be good to go :P

Working very hard for the past year and no doubt wasnt a very good harvesting but at least i can see the result and im contented.Going to save a lot more this coming year to have a more propest year and to give my family my worker a more better life :P

each and every year when comes to chinese new year definately there is TOTO haha and the winning prize also very attracting $_$! no lies no bluff.. i han tumb alot jus hoping to get the luck but each and every year was a disappointing one :P Chinese there is this saying

" In our life, it is already written in our book of life, how much we earn and how much we spent its fixed"

During my down period of time im totally agreed with it. Seriously i dont know how to change or reformat the content that had being already written on it. a week of peaceful and calm meditation knocks me out to sense..

now my saying " how much we earn is depends on how hard working we are and how much we spend we need to spend wisely"

Ahh..... this sounds more sense to me rather than sticking to the old fashion ways :P

this coming year im going to wait for the help of 4D or TOTO but i need to concentrade more into my career and personalty.. only this i can save myself out from the crisis :P

of cos 4D n ToTo if there is luck i will accept it also loh but concept had change.. i dont need to stike 10k 20k or even 1.5 million... a little bit a little bit that can cheer up and help abit in daily life im happy :P

no more " wah if i kena 4d toto i can do this i can do that.." no more..
totally get it out from my mind....

to all pple out there :P As i said this special dragon year dont comes in a million of year...
it a good year for every one to start of..
want to do business can try..
those who fail before and this year is a good year to restart..
in other words for those who have dream to fullfill, make this coming dragon year a good year to start off...

all the best and Good luck!!!

Reflecting..... Ohmmmm....

Starting from Dec 2011 things went up and down high and low...
Seems like unsettled..

Now today, a couples of days passed 2012 still busy as usual and things still unsettled..

Suddenly many thought rush up to my brian. but having a second thought inst this kind of thinking shld comes before the New year so that i can set my new resolution in 2012?
then i realise that im Traditional chinese guy lolx... my new year resolution shld set in Chinese New Year not the Ang Mo one :P

Thinking back at those days when i was still active and hyper.. What is work? i just need to enjoy and that it..
Enjoying with friends and buddies nv seems tired.. at that point of time im a dragon but next day reporting to work im a worm... lolx...

Im just as care free as a wild horse.. a place where new and green grass i will sprint myself there... nv look back and nv think of all the consequences.. "hum tum boleh"

always doing things without using brain at first and when really bang hard on the wall then stop at that point of time.. really STOP for sometime...
Always finding excuses in doing many thing regardless of right or wrong...
I believe that just me...

Nv a chance that i will be alone to face all the ups and downs as there are always pple around me like friends and buddies even family memeber.. Should i say im living very fortunately??? or should i say im over pampered by my friends and family member?? no mater what the reason is im really blessed to have them around me..

2011 year was a tuff year for me as i decided to pack my bag and set sail alone.. a person being pampered before, i brought along many stuff to prepared the journey ahead for me.. packed a year stuff but less then half a year i finished everything along my journey.. that when i really know that i always takes things for granted..

NOw after all the hard struggling, working very hard towards future. suddenly tend to think day work night work giveing all my time to family members.. all i left was a empty cartridge.. so worn out and tired... not even a time for me to recharge...
is there any point?

sometime i guess its not whether is there any point.. it is when you see the smile on your family face its a reward and encouragement for me to work even more harder..

i cant see the future that lies infront of me but as long as the spirit of the "xiao qiang" is there one more year of sailing in the big unpredictable ocean out there, i will be home real soon..

once i told someone before each and every song really related to our heart feeling, things or pple... they agreed... therefore each and every post i have will link to a song that really will say out the heart...

a song is better then reading my boring long wonded story lolx...

Puddle of Mud --- Blurry

It all in a mess deep down as dunno why the outcome turns out to be in this way.
The whole situation shouldnt be in such a way but i guess i do have to be in the part of messing up the thing...

To be frank, lucky that my work also all in a mess that got me no time to stry on certain issues.
definately will wan to know how everything and whats going on but just maybe still in a mess therefore choosing to run aways with that feeling...

Too much work to be settle and to be done.. Most of it will be the restructuring of the worker as well as the the base of my dairy... planning to get an electronic dairy sooner or later to get all my work sort it out and of cos it is another source of brain as least for me lah :P

Don't know whats wrong with the *** bank.. didnt really wanna followed up with my case.. call the respective office but keep on telling me that will call me back.. one day after another CNY drawing new... I needed the help from bank now yet they put me into cold room... when you dont need any they will jus pop out from no where and keep telling you that they can help...

A big sum to be cover looking forward to their reply and hope that will be a pleasant result... this amount will straighten all my stuff.. Oh pls heaven no need to open your eye to look at it maybe jus peep will do haha :P

Looked into the mirror when i got back from work just now.. Wow... no comment... well 2 to 3 month to go... just need to save up a bit more and will be good...

for now whats lies infront of me will be just like that band name and the vision will be the song title...

Puddle of mud a path that is tuff and vision still not clear enough...
you bloody bank better rings me up tomorrow if not im going to.... :P

start my resolution abit late but late better then nv start loh...
trying to kick the habit of holding Hunki day one...
-difficult to control especially when gets work up but worker and bank issues today.. but still trying to use my determination and it went well..

today six sticks..
and now left i think 2 stick and that it.. not going to buy anymore...

ohmmm.......... meditate... lolX

Well... Bring It On......

Good start or not a good start ???
2012 :P

Well.. good and bad news...
yesterday brought my mum to chemo and have a small chat session with the in-charge..
"your mum health was remarkable"
this quote... all i needed was this quote..
it actually lighten my heart although we knew that my mum situation was that bad...

Consider good start?? Yeah of cos...

But on the other hand, my dad health turns to red light...
no matter wat, i think we neglect our daddy as form the last time i heard that his intestine got some problem and dun really know wat is it... till yesterday.. he came back from hospital and says that doc recommended him to do operation....

When he go into the detail of what the doc says:

Why didnt anyone comes along with you??
he answered what wrong??
your intestine needs an operation and it may causes life danger and we need to seek your family approval...
and my dad answer..
well then pls arrange after chinese new year then...

when i heard that.. i was totally sank into the deep ocean...
for this while i had been worrying other then my mum issue and my own issue but i neglected my dadyy health...
worst thing his next appointment was on the 14 of feb.....
well...

there is so many co-incident in my life that made me had to deal with situation that i really get lost of hand on it..

bad start?
....

to me works well nv end but then i guess for the past few holiday or my neglect on work too causes too much problem as well...

nv do i will be thinking of the nagetive as the worst had already fallen on me so just get my mind straignthen up and get all the thing done up before chinese new year...

huat ah!!!!!

Give and take? or take two hands to clap....

Happy New year to all frends and family member... Its officially 2012...
May all study personal have gd progress in this year
May all working adults get their promotion this year
and May all pple have a happy, healthy and wealthy life this year.

This year also another diff counting party lolx... Its also my boss day...
Past few years, spent counting down for each and every new year were out there drinking with fren and fellow buddies.. this year a calm and peaceful count down...

Thinking back each and every year.. This year was the least i recieved the greeting msg from my fren... Sad... and this also means that getting lesser friends each year...
hmmm...

Give and take...

give-and-take
n
1. mutual concessions, shared benefits, and cooperation
2. a smoothly flowing exchange of ideas and talk
vb give and take (intr)
to make mutual concessions

give-and-take
noun compromise, agreement, concession, co-operation, flexibility, reciprocity a happy relationship where there's a lot of give-and-take

This is the defination from http://www.thefreedictionary.com/give-and-take

From dictionary.. am i not clear or not understand the meaning or other mis-interpret in their own ways?

Recenlty lots of small issues or disscussion which leads me to a cross junction. IM lost in the world of finding my road once again...
No matter how well i explained or to set an example, it actually come back hitting me that my mind got corrupted or hitting me back that i nv want to face the fact that there is other ways of doing things..

The problem is that i know there are many alternative choice and ways of doing things that really i can accept the way of other pple doing thing and i can face the fact that there are tons of ways out there to sort things out. I do accept but then on the other hand have you got the idea of your own problem? the biggest problem is that you know that you dont have problem lolx.. did i put it in the right way??

The story of a screw driver and a screw story begins...

when a + screw meets a + head screw driver wow.. very fast things can be unscrew..
when a - screw meets a - head screw driver, again wow.. things work out the same way..

but..

when a + screw meets a - head screw driver things still can sort it out maybe not that smooth but still the screw can be remove over a longer periods of time.

and..

When a - screw meets a + head screw driver, no matter how hard you try, it will nv unscrew worst still the screw will get spoiled.

moral of the story?
of cos if we gets the right tools in sorting out our life situation, we will have out road clear and smooth no matter wat happens..
but if we got the wrong tools in our life, we got a harder and tougher road to move on or maybe even worst we cant gets our things solved.

In life we give and take.. the screw always the one who giving in the sign and the screw driver always taking the given thread to unscrew the things.

but if it is a + screw and a - screw driver, they both have to give in as much as possible and take as least as possible because it really take two hand to clap so that the screw can be unscrewed...

this lesson applies to all relationship, friendship, family matters....
i believe this explain out all i wanted to voice out..

nv didnt i wan to try or not but realise the core of the problem lies here how can i unsolve this mystery??
Well that maybe takes my life time or nv it will be solved and let it become mystery.

life...
lolx..
really no comment..