Time doesn't wait or stop for you just because you experiance bad situation or happy moment...
Frame and glory doesnt last long as there are better candidates out there...
For the past two weeks, i realised that i had changed in ways dramatically. Financially i control it very well then before ever since i hear a comment from one of my friend commenting about her friend
"at your age now you left 30 bucks in your saving and you are still so happy and now worries".
This sentence struck me very hard. People said save for the raining weather and did i do it. guess not. Thinking back all those year, the way i spent without thinking was so wrong. Ended up with own finance crisis but good thing was that there are many good buddies that lent me their helping hands.
I need to moved on and change the way i wnat it future but not i used to be..
Started healthy lifestyle since last two weeks.
Really alot of different when i put in the determination. While jogging i took the time and went into deep tot for myself, my future and my work.
Not the way it used to be as now i planned my work up front. and turns out to be so good and relaxing. I guess that should be the way.
Realised that in the past, im jus working for the seek of working. As long as there is no complains or problem im consider lucky for that day. but when complain or problem occurs i was like how how how. i blame this and that without thinking of the way of my working attitude was so damn wrong.
For example last week i battled off all problems and situation that last min occurs. and i won it beautifully and im so proud of it.
Its been a long time that i nv felt so proud and satisfied in work. the very last time was when im still in interior design trade.
i had made so much new year resolutions but did i really put in to action or just say it because its new year?
In year of 2011, I did it. although was very slow in pace, in 2011 Mid march, I did it. Many thanks to that person. Its because of the comment was really so straight forward and harsh.
I always being harsh to people and straight while advising them and now i got it back. KARMA :P
I guess was a good one as i started to learn.
I told myself that to start off jogging with short distance followed by increasing it weeks by weeks because need to build up all the stamina. during the 1st week i started off 1.2km. for this 1.2km journey i realise that i only able to explore so small amount of things around me. 2nd week i increased my distance to 2.1km. that was WOW... killing me but i explore more thing that i expected.
Same thing i realise in life. If you keep staying at this isolated small island which u know the environment so well, hunting food or finding shelter are just like u clicking ur finger, is this wat you really want?
SInce you know the island well and u know that there are material that can built strong shelter for stormy day why dont i build a small raft that can sail to the next bigger island to learn more surviving skills?
ONly when you explore u get to expose and learn other things. by stay comfortly in the world of your gets you nowhere.
It takes you courage and gut to sail out too.
people on the same island will start commenting on you saying you stupid, aiya sure die one lah, he's not going to make it etc or rumour that say confirm he did something bad, must be running away from some one etc.
but do pple think tiwce like why are you sailing out to explore?
during the process of sailing out you need to prepare things that you need and that takes time. Also is the time that comments and rumours starts.
DUring the process of preparation, of cos there are many ups and down or even failures.
THere might still kind souls in the island that will advise you and that makes your determination stronger.
Time to sail...
But HOW?
hmmm.. I'm stuck almost 3 month until sentence by sentence of golden wording passing thru my brain.
Finally i set sail.....
2 weeks later i met a storm in the open sea..
and im fighting with the storm now. soon i will see the rainbow and i will get the answer to solve or should say to settle it.
I will make sure i will reach the bigger island for me to build a boat not a raft to set sail again...
3 months time.....
