Light is on and i stick my head out of the ground :P

SHould said to be very happy or maybe very happy no doubt i got myself stem off once but not i got my head pop out on the stem again :P
Still wondering to attend to the gather at the moment after my temple session but i guess it worth attending to :P

felt abit odd in the 1st place but i guess when the game and beer start rolling my crap comes out again... might be a joker but i dun mind as im overjoy that night to see light again :P

had a mini concert that night i guess with onli few song on stage.. No doubt its free!!! yes its free.. not many audiances but i got one or two die hard fans hahaha:P
cool!!! i guess im starting to ware off the stage fright :P...

damn it.. to day i was so happy when i 1st saw the 4d result... but hmmm lusk still not there yet but im glad too as we seems to have luck no doubt not all but the presence is there :P
this was the 1st time .. next week:P
really if kena both doreamon will be free in term of mind i guess :P
Lets hope and pray!!!

cool man...

生来死去在此地，日夜忙碌多费力。
包山包海没休息，好像签了卖身契。
同事自私惹我气，老伴无理发脾气。
只想回家松口气，怎之家人更长气。
一只说我没出息，心中痛苦向谁泣。
生活根本没乐趣，等待周末碰运气。
中了马票我得意，管他老板放狗屁。
灯红酒绿开party，悠哉闲哉做皇帝。
顶天立地出个气，满汉全席赤道腻。
花天酒地马杀鸡，想来想去不对劲。
白天发梦不实际，到底还是无处去。
不如寻友找乐趣，夜夜躲在victor pub,
字字句句寻乐趣，发发牢骚骗自己。
游戏规则多样化，罚酒喝酒到天明。。。

Meaningful.....

人的一生里，不知道有多少难过的事。
这个世界上，谁该赵天灾，谁该赵人祸，
什么样的命运都随时能改变我们人的一生。
重要的事，在那个时候我们的心理有没有亏欠。。
当海啸来的时候淹死了很多人，有好的人，也有坏的人。。
当生命结束的时候，
我们能不能为心无愧的面对自己程近所遇见的每一个人。。
幸福不在于生命的长短，而在于和你身边的朋友们，
家人或爱你的人，再分开的时候没有遗憾。。。

Sorting out Feeling of march...

Whao... it is hard to imagine that on this very march many down then up surrounding me...
!st was family issues, 2ndly work issues, thirdly temple issues lastly got friendship nearly to six feet under...

Things jus happened so fast that made us no return and defendless..

Finish watching a show feels like the main actress was a very strong girl with many supportive friends and family member.. Of cos, drama and real life do have big differences but isnt drama usual the copy of real life? only different was that they are more drama, more romance, more unexpected things that make the show more nice to catch our eyes :P

But when drama falls upon us we dun find it eye catching nor love it...
Yes.. human life are so fragile.. not onli to our life but our heart and mind also.. PPle control life heart and mind in drama but can we actually do it?
Guess not...

ups and downs in our life we cant control it.. we try to run away from it some time. i do run away from it many time but of cos things stil comes back co incidently to remind me about the bad time... but when happen shld i face it or run away again??
i really dun know too... i got a different statues as different pple.. and tat statues was an excuse for mi to astone all my wrong i did.. but does it really helps me???

i realised... when ever i tot i already forget about an incident and coincidently thing happen and made mi recalled everything.. started to feel down and lost again.. as i once lost a best buddies which i dun wan it happen again... under circumstances or environment i got struck again.. start again lost..

hmmm.. should i change an aspect or view to look at the incident again? thru the drama i had jus finish i realised.. things actually not coincidently happens.. i might have certan reason.. maybe it is jus another test for me to see whether am i really forget about it or am i jus runing away from it and let it huant me everytime :P
jus like studies.. after going thru lesson you will have test or exam to honour you up to another level.. if fail? try again.. to try is not failure but is to overcome that fear in us and made us grow stronger each time we passed..
I still an failure to it but i wun give up trying till i pass as i dun wan it to huant me lifetime :P
try my best to save it and do it....
there is always this saying .. "you can run for a life time but u cant hide for life time.."

from the day i learn and knowing thing, i keep running and running.. is time for mi to face it and grow strong for next level of life exam...

this month met many troubled things... when i was really down and lost.. doreamon found me... doreamon jus as kind as usual sending out its rounds hand to me.. jus when i was in another dark side again, i saw light again... many thanks to doreamon...

words can smooth ear and also a weapon to kill pple.. got killed by brother once yet he is the one who saved me... sort of relief....

now that i cant run any more, i found a brand new myself to be accepted by others.. to throw away all my past incident and accept new incident.. when the days happens, i will be standing at the peak of the mountian look back and wave at doreamon and those that help mi once push me to the very top.. "Thank you for your support, without you all as my teacher i wun be standing at the peak recieving my honour of life today" this is wat i wil shout...

Keep telling pple im old already but not old, im still young also not considering very young.. does it matter whether im old or young? matter is how can i lift up and how can i let go so that i can face future more fierce and brutal battle of life...

to my beloved frens buddies family member...

Sorry that i once hurt you
sorry that i once betrayed you
i will stand tall and face all of you once again to let you all accept the brand new me once more..

to those had left this world for me..
i thank you for your accompany,
i thank you for your sincerelity
i will follow the way of your unfinish pure heart
and shared with those i said sorry before....


2009 started.. i haven started puttin up new resolution..
let today be a day for me to put up my 2009 resolution...

天下无难事，只怕有心人。。
只要有恒心，铁棒磨成针。。

for those dunno chinese..
it means

heaven down no difficult thing, onli scare got heart pple..
paper medicine got horrizontal heart, mental rod devil till needle..

:P

Jus not my luk

Just when everything i tot was so beautiful as i walking gently down the meadow,
i fall more then six feet under..
left hand... right hand...
you can grab thing with both hand with same amount... tried to grab hold of everything with both hand together, it got worst...
this mnth really dunno what happen one wave come after the other...
those scary words still flying all over aove my head... words really kills pple...
got killed.. but is gai killed...
i dunno wat to do liao.. out of idea le.. jammed stucked ... bleed ...
the person dun trust u anymore.....

HAi...

Why?? Isnit it jus smalll case? Inst that small issue?? HOw come small little thing can be such huha?

not say cannot be found.. hai... speechless...

sway sway sway...

What to do??

Hmmm... DIe liao.. found out that i every night cant slp no matter how tired i am..
Cant get into dream land or even la la land..
Am i thinking too much or i already think too much??
stress...
Days passing by.. work not really smooth.. eveything seems to stop or maybe freeze at that particular hour or day ever since it happened... how am i supposed to move on? Or issit that i haven really understand the art of the words that he told me or issit i work it out in the wrong ways??
Started not to believe in anything n everything already.. Pray well things done still so ke lian.. DOes god really exists?
Imagination... thinking.. beliefs... mind started to general out images.. is that so??
Exhuausted to think...
I Need my future back.. i cant give in to fate liao.. Once i eaten many bitter stuff before and i will for the sake of future i will eat once more..
Frens out that dun blame me because is you who made mi choose this road.. and so cant u blame on me.. lets have a fare games!!!!
Preparing once again... once ready there will be no mercy!!!!