Sorting out Feeling of march...

Whao... it is hard to imagine that on this very march many down then up surrounding me...
!st was family issues, 2ndly work issues, thirdly temple issues lastly got friendship nearly to six feet under...

Things jus happened so fast that made us no return and defendless..

Finish watching a show feels like the main actress was a very strong girl with many supportive friends and family member.. Of cos, drama and real life do have big differences but isnt drama usual the copy of real life? only different was that they are more drama, more romance, more unexpected things that make the show more nice to catch our eyes :P

But when drama falls upon us we dun find it eye catching nor love it...
Yes.. human life are so fragile.. not onli to our life but our heart and mind also.. PPle control life heart and mind in drama but can we actually do it?
Guess not...

ups and downs in our life we cant control it.. we try to run away from it some time. i do run away from it many time but of cos things stil comes back co incidently to remind me about the bad time... but when happen shld i face it or run away again??
i really dun know too... i got a different statues as different pple.. and tat statues was an excuse for mi to astone all my wrong i did.. but does it really helps me???

i realised... when ever i tot i already forget about an incident and coincidently thing happen and made mi recalled everything.. started to feel down and lost again.. as i once lost a best buddies which i dun wan it happen again... under circumstances or environment i got struck again.. start again lost..

hmmm.. should i change an aspect or view to look at the incident again? thru the drama i had jus finish i realised.. things actually not coincidently happens.. i might have certan reason.. maybe it is jus another test for me to see whether am i really forget about it or am i jus runing away from it and let it huant me everytime :P
jus like studies.. after going thru lesson you will have test or exam to honour you up to another level.. if fail? try again.. to try is not failure but is to overcome that fear in us and made us grow stronger each time we passed..
I still an failure to it but i wun give up trying till i pass as i dun wan it to huant me lifetime :P
try my best to save it and do it....
there is always this saying .. "you can run for a life time but u cant hide for life time.."

from the day i learn and knowing thing, i keep running and running.. is time for mi to face it and grow strong for next level of life exam...

this month met many troubled things... when i was really down and lost.. doreamon found me... doreamon jus as kind as usual sending out its rounds hand to me.. jus when i was in another dark side again, i saw light again... many thanks to doreamon...

words can smooth ear and also a weapon to kill pple.. got killed by brother once yet he is the one who saved me... sort of relief....

now that i cant run any more, i found a brand new myself to be accepted by others.. to throw away all my past incident and accept new incident.. when the days happens, i will be standing at the peak of the mountian look back and wave at doreamon and those that help mi once push me to the very top.. "Thank you for your support, without you all as my teacher i wun be standing at the peak recieving my honour of life today" this is wat i wil shout...

Keep telling pple im old already but not old, im still young also not considering very young.. does it matter whether im old or young? matter is how can i lift up and how can i let go so that i can face future more fierce and brutal battle of life...

to my beloved frens buddies family member...

Sorry that i once hurt you
sorry that i once betrayed you
i will stand tall and face all of you once again to let you all accept the brand new me once more..

to those had left this world for me..
i thank you for your accompany,
i thank you for your sincerelity
i will follow the way of your unfinish pure heart
and shared with those i said sorry before....


2009 started.. i haven started puttin up new resolution..
let today be a day for me to put up my 2009 resolution...

天下无难事，只怕有心人。。
只要有恒心，铁棒磨成针。。

for those dunno chinese..
it means

heaven down no difficult thing, onli scare got heart pple..
paper medicine got horrizontal heart, mental rod devil till needle..

:P