Monday, December 26, 2011

A Xmas that change my mind....

Something different in this Xmas :P

On the Xmas Eve, tot i could be a smooth and slience night for me to keep my calmness and peacefulness but thing turn out to be bit of noisey...
staying at home but noisey mind...

ON the very Xmas day itself was a very different experiance xmas day..
Wedding day falls on Xmas :P
ONe of my secondary school buddy got married on that day.. was a very blessing and xtra white wedding lunch.. Turely wishing this newly wed with unlimited happiness down their marriage life..

on the other hand, got so envy over their wedding. seeing all the preparation video and specially made video for the newly wed.. the family member shot a surprise video for them.. seeing all this touching scene makes me more n more envy..
Envy that they had all the best blessing and wish from family and friends that what wedding is all about..

No doubt marriage is thing that between the couple itself but without any bless from frens and family and with out sharing the joy of your marriage is not perfect..

A couple should share all the ups and downs together be it is what kind of situation and what sort of thing..
isnt it????

Doubt doubt doubt..

relating about my own situation

i may complains about why you like this and why you like that but you also do complain why do i like that why do i like this...
then where is the compromise?

previously i compromise and what did i get.. now i dun compromised what did i get...

why do pple can just see thing from their own angle and not willing to widen their vision?

WHos fault is it and who is pushing all the fault? Maybe i got the fault maybe i got the problem but is it only i got the problem? and is it really all the problem lies in me only? we have being asking the same and arguing the same topic over n over again till the situation now is im forcing you to do things...

quite sad to hear that...

basically i think we had understand that maybe we are already on a shaky situation that no matter how we compromise to each and other yet we come see any outcome and even worst that it became an arguement topic...

i cant says that all my married fren doesnt have arguement but still i can see all the happiness and joy...

i have a fren which got married this year October.. I watch their relationship grows from fren blossom to lover and then married.. all their problem i also watch them go thru step by step even if the situation is vry bad... but still there is room for them to understand and compromised... their family, fren including myself actually dont have much hope to see their marriage life but they made it thru...

truely on their wedding day i feel content and reall happy for them..

On my side serious i cant see anything more further....
the very beginning i was looking forward about my marriage life.. whenever i talks about hows i want my wedding life to be like, i felt so endo and excited about it but now i just cant find back that feeling and more worst is that i got so fear over it...

i promised myself this shld be the very last and i wan to make it happen.. but i think i failed again...
my fear is more then excitment..

Thinking back then this shld really be the last im going to touch on and no more again if things doenst really turn out as expected.

Well... this year really a bucket full of wisdom that make me wake up and knowing am i on the right track.

Be it on family matter, working matter, friendship matter...
i really gotten all the ans in my heart....

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