@~@ WorN OuT @~@

Gd day everyone!! Last day of 2007 already have you got any conclusion for your past result on this year? haha For those who are doing well hope will can do better on this coming year and for those who are still struggling out there, please dont give up as your love ones, family members, friends and others haven given you up yet :P I might be a stranger to you but still i wun give you up:P I believe if anyone got the heart of striving towards goal, you can do it :P

Supposed to turn up to my primary school gathering on sat night but too busy for me to rush there. Our gathering was at the coasta sand beside the Downtown east. I missed the fun that night. there is gift exchange party going on, 20 plus over primary school mate was there but i missed it. last night went down to join them.. haha no doubt not all school mates were there but it ok. we had a majong session till morning where the bird are hunting for food already. I lost money!! haha not much anyway..
Hmm.. this few day were very bad for me.. had been coughing badly since my sore throat had recovered.. Make me lost appetitide!!
Rach home about 7 plus.. shut down myself for awhile then went out to work already.. hmm.. Seems like now im the one who are not awaken yet!! am I!! or am I not!! or is it that last time you are not awaken yet u dun feel anything about me but now when u awaken already and working atitude are back then you feel that im not doing well? or am i realy not doing well? haha myth canot be tell..
anyway good also!! let work hard together n score them with flyong colour!!
HURRAy!! WELCOME 2008 !!!

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!?! A Day Of CoNfeSSion !?!

Today first half of the day was a very bad one... Early morning woke up and felt so sick!! Had a bad sore throat plus coughing is killing me!! That was not the worst case :P met up one of my worker at eunos with my partner.. Just all out of sudden argurment broke.. Hmm.. there is some misunderstanding out there with my partner and worker.. got so fed up man!! Got to deal with my bad throat already very irritated worst still got stop there conversation half way as i don't like to see sure bad sight too..
After running job site at this some where around macpherson, we rushed down to pandan ave job site and that was the most tiring among our job.. On the way there, i started to say out alot of problems that we are facing and of cos many confession started to come out from both of us.. Well it was a good chat before we start of our work.. Now that things that i need to say or advise i had already voice out.. the rest of the thing is depends on him :P
Felt very relief after that and also while working doesnt felt any barrel in me any more... Gd sign gd sign.. Whaoo.. today drove all the way from west area back to east area haha shiok!! We drop by the entertainment centre at this kallang.. Newly open shopping mall with ice skating, Kbox, cinema, and gaming center.. not much thing that actually can attract pple there or maybe is just some of the shop are still vacant :P drop by there for luch that move out to our last destination which was at aljunied area.
Went to temple with him today.. taught him how to actually medidate.. a very useful way of calming urself down when you feel very tight up..
Tiring tiring day.. reached home about 4 plus, i Drop dead again..

( > Who Took My Cheese Away < )

Once there was a mice.. A blind mice.. He was trying very hard to find out where on earth was the cheese and even tot that everyone had taken or snatch his cheese away from him..
He complain to heaven angrily.. Why on earth you blinded me and now making everyone to take all the cheese away from me!!
The fact is that the cheese are already around him but just he was blinded and start to complain and devoted in searching for his one and only cheese.. Because he was so eager and anxious to look for that piece of cheese, he forgotten to slow down and take a look around..
Life.. we tend to search for the one or the thing that we are craving for without noticing actually things are already there for us if jus that we are to fast in looking forward..
People come and go, Once things are done it cannot be undo.. Let nature take the place instead of force it to take place..
Heaven had arrange each and everyone to meet once and to make someone hurts once.. For you to realise and to understand who you are looking and searching for the future.. if you misunderstand the will of heaven for arranging such a meeting, you will start to blame why are you so cruel.. Bad things happen upon us we always push the blame to others. Why start blaming other instead of realising is the one belong to you?
Heaven too arranged many bumpy road down the life for us.. Family, Career, Friends etc. is the matter of how we face the fact and learn from the facts.. Yes i admit i do complain haha but things might be different now ever since last tuesday night :P
Realising now wasnt too late for me.. have you realise that? are you still rushing and pushing all your way to find the thing or the person?
2007!! I met a few people that really changes my life and made me realise how life should be carried on with a smile.. the one that make me realise who should i look for in future and the group of pple that helps pple around that makes me feel so ease and comfort in helping out others out there.. and of cause is this group of pple made mi realise life is so wonderful.. My goal and inspiration come from this pple that i had newly met in year 2007.. Thanks to everyone even you once step into and walk out of my life.. Thanks!!
Now what i need to do before 2007 end, is to tune up my health.. seems like i had forgotten how to sleep since then.. Need to sleep early, eat fully and work hard but play hard too:P
Gd Nite!!!

~=_" CloSing Statment FoR 2007 "_=~

4 more day to 2008..
2007 am I good enough..

1) Am I hardworking enough?
ans: Nope.

2) Do i Spent alot of time on entertainment rather then work?
ans: Yes.

3) Do i have Regrets?
ans: Yes, i had many.

4) Is the goal and target that you set had accomplished?
ans: No. Not a single one.

Whao.. Enough of Qns already.. So much negative remarks..
Last night i got a very real dream.. i dreamt of her.. i guess that really time to let go already.. can imagine that i woke up after the dream my tears roll down jus like wat happen in the dream.. Not sad but yet sorrow.. Time and fate arranged such a wonderful partner for me once.. now is time to already liao :P
New goal and target are setting up now for me.. Attitude and mentally got to re-adjust or tune to another frequency.. starting to keep and pack all sour, sweet, bitter and hot memories in the memories box and move on, strive on, kick off on the coming 2008..
Push harder next year.. Dont think too much nonsense.. change working style.. Got to be aggressive.. Hope everyone working with me will understand me.. haha.. especially .. haha nothing :P

No time to fool around till i get all my thing settle once and for all.. a last try buck up.. Anymore Mistake or misunderstanding and that it.. A must to stop drinking for 2008.. i must try to stop smoking.. haha hope i can for this two.. what ever it is.. jia you jia you..

~+)" MeRRy ChrIstmaS "(+~

Merry Chirstmas to Everyone out there and may all your dream and wish will come true !!
Another year of x'mas had arrived.. is it a very merry christmas to me, maybe yes and maybe no.. Look happy yet lonely no doubt there is a bunch of havoc buddies hanging around with me.. Wishing and hoping were just another wrong intention for me..
At this very point of time, i got the picture very clear and sharp.. No longer will happened again.. From the begining of that day i should know.. yet still i'm cheating and bluffing myself.. Well really had to pack up my tent and instead of waiting miracle to drop by why not i create miracle.. Holding on is gd but holding on to somethingthat dont belongs to you is no gd and not heathy..
Year 2008 will be arriving soon in just coming week.. New Year New revolution!!
To push my limit up to another level.. Thinking back of time, since starting on 2007 i felt that i achieve nothing but wasting of many precious time.. I turned lazy and become slacker that i dun even care much on my work. I still work but for the seek of working.. Now that i'm running my own business with my partner i need to buck up myself. To learn new things and accomplish new things.. I want to break my own barrel of restriction!! I want to make a big turning point at this point of time so that i can prepared myself with a new set of newly gear up attitude and working method.
I had goals and target to reach now.. to reach my expected salary and a more comfortable life i had to change.. 24 yrs old now.. no doubt i am a boss now but do i really look like a boss or shld i said do i act like a boss?? The ans was no.. I want to change the ans in 3 month time..
to clear evething once and for all..
Earns towards my goals.. and everything will be as fine as usual..

-+ HmmM +-

Whats going on today :P Felt so strange.. Woke up in the morning get myself ready and prepared to work.. haha maybe was yesterday, my partner was late.. over slept :P Its ok can understand.. Suppose to meet him at 11 a.m but change to 1130 later.. went out breakfast with mum at same time asking him to join us for the breakfast :P
Surprisingly i saw one of my buddy at the market place where we were having breakfast :P Don't really chat much at there as me and my partner are moving off to interview some of our new workers :P No choice, Had to chat up with him tml..
A very daring day today as i drove all the way throughout the whole journey.. from bedok to Lor. chuan and many other places.. haha better dont get caught as my TP test are really round the corner.. 2 out of 4 worker, 2 successfully got thru the interview.. which actually lightening half of our work load. But still the major one still need to interview some other worker.. Hopefully can ge some worker to take over the work.. Anyway 2 successful candidate doesnt mean they can really help.. whether are they up to the job still yet to know.. Pray hard and Pray hard :P
Finally everything ends at 330 p.m.. consider off for work le :P yeah!!
Tot going out to get X'mas present for tml party but really very very tired tht i fell asleep on my sofa.. :P another drop dead incident happen again haha.. Alot of planning needed to be fix for this coming week.. really pack on my schedule.. Have to plan my man power well so that things wont get hiccup.. Need to show and guild some of my new member to their job site too..
Guess that today i got attack by the monster call moody again.. hmm..
Really still hurts alot when come to think of it.. Anyway it just come naturally which i cant even stop it :P Sometime i am wondering how well is she now or what is she doing at this period of time.. does she know that in a corner of this world there is some one missing her badly out there.. All this was just something that calm myself down.. telling myself maybe she knows but jus she had diffculties in responding..
well still living in some kind of strange world right now.. :P

-+- Tired!! TireD!! TireD!! -+-

Gd very the morning to everyone that read my Blog!!

Busy and tiring day!! Early morning woke up and 9 plus which last night i slept at 4 a.m.. Start working lo!! When all the way down to yishun to do some cleaning works over there.. very shag and zombie feel.. haha lucky this stupid house not that big :P but the owner of the house were very strange.. Kept disturbing us in doing out clean works.. Telling us to do this and to do that as if we are new in this market.. What the hell!! haha but overall still ok lah.. a very nice owner :P

After cleaning when back home do a bit of house cleaning then drop dead to slp for an hour..

Today at 1730 hrs, there was a very important client to meet.. A so call new project for our friendly supplies which can actually boost up our sales and bring us up to another level.. If this project are to be awarded to us, i'm sure alot of things might change.. A very big turning point which i hope that it can be awarded to us.. But come to think, it need alot of brain storming and thing to be done.. can aford to make any mistakes as one mistakes might be able to "kill" us hahha..

After appointment, we went for a walk at bugis.. realising that today is a saturday yet we are not out there neither window shopping nor shopping for X'mas.. we are actually waiting for time to past and waiting for our next cleaning session at bugis here.. When can i really had a chance to shop without worries leh?? right now at this moment im sitting in the resturant facing my computer and waiting for my working to get the job done.. X'mas coming round the corner.. next coming week.. Lucky that still got many friends around.. if not it will be a lonely X'mas already haha.. almost i think 5 to 6 yrs spending X'mas with friends already.. looking forward to someone which is more then friend.. haha boring..

Oh ya!! felt glad and happy for my elder that he had got his house next year march.. Final he had the luck already haha.. hmm.. Can tell that to setup a own family are not really that easy.. alot of money and effort must invest in.. Living in singapore really very hard.. expenses are getting more n more high and the money value are getting more n more tiny..

A grown up child like me starting to get worried abput my future already.. haha will i get stuck in the middle of the living standard in singapore :P

No choice.. take one step at a time and stay focus on the road just to make sure got to make a right turn at each and every junction!!

*!~- Is it A hOliDay For Me TodAY -~!*

Gd MidNight my pal!! :P TOday Morning When out to Pay my respect to my erm.. Should i call him shi fu or shi xiong? What ever which i address him but he will be the one that i can respect and learn from him although i didnt really get to learn anything from him.. but the way of his learning and helping out the needs, i felt that i really respect him and hope that time could turn back and i can be able to learn things from him :P
Time is short and you wont know when you will be leaving this world.. so stay positive thinking and stay happy always in facing every little small or big matter.. Wondering why is that gd man also got the shortest life and how come always the bad one get to leave longer :P.. Got a buddy too had this feeling same like me too haha but what to do maybe this is the fact and this made life more puzzled and interest as the rest of the pple will get to see and guess how the ending of the bad guy can be :P
Today.. erm i should say yesterday was a holiday but to me it seems like not.. i'm tired and worn out.. but yet i still got to work.. No choice if i dont work, the rest of the following week me and might be very busy and even can run all the job well.. Very tired.. One one side i had to handle my feeling and emotion well so that i can be able to cope with my life but on the other hand i do need to work and n cope with my business.. Ever since i was 14, i started working till now, Not even a holiday seems like a holiday to me.. But onli the ubin trip, no doubt is a short trip but really a very enjoyable and a very relaxing trip that i felt i really enjoy and felt peace like i nv had before..
Life.. haha need to go through many stages of mistake and lesson... hmmm.. i'm tired.. just wanna have a peaceful life..
Today work till 5 plus or 6.. HOLIDAY WOR!!! haha no choice.. Tomorrow erm which is i think today, A very busy day and a very important day to me.. whether will it be a successful one but i still want to make it a successful one.. If manage to close this deal, Friendly supplies will rock all the way and will be able to step up to another level.. slow and steady wins the race.. clam down cool down and things will be fine and smooth.. I must i can and i will!! BUddy lets jia you tml.. Buddy i know that this few days you are jus like me during that past week but we need to buck up and stay cool and concentrade.. when you lose some thing u might gain something.. right now the thing that u lost now maybe is not more then the thing that you are gaining in future so let us strive forward our future ok..

_=_ Jus Another Day_=_

Not much great things happened today.. But deep down my heart is like missing of some routine.. :P
Seems like i'm a clock without batteries.. THe world is turning, days are passing and surrounding things are still keeping up their daily routine.. For me, everything do still keeping up todate but my feeling and emotion had stop running.. everything seems so dull and bored.. For once i got someone to repair my colour TV and the technician tune back all the wonderful colour but now my colour seems to have problem again.. What ever reason it is, im now back to my black and white TV.. Is there anymore Technician out there who really can solve my problem once and for all :P
This few days my buddy got some problem with his gf again.. Don't really know what had actually happened but it was so painful and pityful when i see him in this stage.. Maybe i shared the same feeling with him for time being.. BUddy.. when two person get together, it no longer a situation of one pple takes place.. if being together is so hard and torture, why so presistant to keep on holding on.. rather then holding on to it maybe if you let it go, you might feel much more better? when come to love, i realise that sacrifice play most of the role.. Human beig and so foolish that can really sacrifice their everything without any rewards back to them.. Is it that always the one the showing and putting in the most effort in a relationship will get hurt the most? Guess that we cant run away from the fact and it is true..
Buddy no matter what happens i do still respect ur decision and will be there if you needed help.. But pls bare this is mind, are you really wanted your life to be so miserable:P
Another case is that i heard from my the other buddy.. guess that now i can see the reflextion of me aready.. the more impatient your are the more sad n hurt you will be in the end..

_+-= Realise The faCt =-+_

Up till today, i started to realise that i still living in the past.. i tot i already forgotten about it but still im still.. hmm.. i always tot that but sub-consiously im not... Alot of short memory still flashing back.. hmm..
怎么会有结果是我想太多,
没有方向看不清楚在徘徊,
我知道我一定走不开,
漫长的路寂寞的夜,
在心里面哭泣的夜,
你明白吗..
只想在你的身边,
我没有勇气没有力气,
真的无法离你而去,
你明白吗..
只想在你的身边,
你身边说爱你..
Mood Swing haha... gd night !!

+*+ Another Had Gone +*+

Guess what?? I just finished doing all my paper work.. So tiring.. Started doing my paper work from 6 pm till now.. Finally got the chance to clear all my unfinish work ever since i'm down :P To be frank, i hated account so much that once i swear to myself during my days in secondary school that i will not touch account forever. Who knows at this moment i am looking closely into the account book.. haha..

Early morning brought two new staff to my job site showing them around and pass down all our basic skill to them.. so far so good but still i need to rush here and there for other job site and paying out payroll to worker :P whether not really that good for today as i got caught in the rain.. what the DU.. :P

Thought today after passing down the knowledge and skill to both our new staff they will be handy helper to friendly supplies but who know i got a call while i was doing my account. Saying that he don't wanna work for friendly supplies.. I got so fed up in some way.. BUt after understanding his situation then i guess i should forgive him bah :P

-+-| A DaY Full Of Emotional Thought |-+-

Sorry Bro and SiS, Friends and buddys.. Lap of a day On updating on my blog :P

From the day that i was back on my single life again, I always tot that i am alone in this world. But..

现在我才明白，我不是寂寞的也不是孤独的。。因为每一天，每一小时，每一分钟，每一秒都有人参加了寂寞俱乐部。。 简单化也就是说每一天都有一位朋友失恋或是伤心。。

I'm not the worst case.. :P

The night before attending to my fren wedding dinner, my mum had a fight with me elder bro again.. Who can really understand me that stuck in between family affair matter.. who should i side? i'm really not sure.. what i can do is only try my very best to maintain the relationship.. 家家有本难念津。。

Actually this few day i am in a normal mood & stages.. after attending to my fren wedding dinner, i start to envy him and other happy couples out there.. why on earth they are so happy and ever lasting.. haha what to do fated loh... Shawn, i sincerely wish u all the best on ur marriage and may all best blessing goes to you :P

Things started to run wildly in my mind again.. a lot of qns started popping out again but yet all this qns come with no ans.. It is really very hard and compromising path to make before stepping onto the red carpet.. Love is a kind of very powerful thing on earth that can hurt someone deep and also can cure someone who was badly hurt.. How to use this tool in a way that no one will gets hurt is depend on only compromising..

Last night when dinner started, I started drinking.. my friends and i had planned to catch a movie after the dinner but last min i changed the plan. I sound out to go for a singing session.. Just felt so emotional and wanted to sing out my feeling.. Bro, thanks for following my plan and let me sang out all my feeling.. sorry that made you guys spent alont and also showing out the saddness and emotional feeling.. At least after pouring out all my feeling i felt more better..

This morning i woke up, i got myself dress up and went to meet my drawing customer.. after meeting him, went down to 'Sheng tan' to settle out some issuses...

Late evening time did discuss my work ideas and method with my partner.. After doing that i got a sms from my Buddy..

Although he dun wanna say out what actually happen but i did know some thing went wrong.. Lucky his situation was not tat bad.. After chating with him, i started to think, TO love somebody, Is there a need to change the habit and lifestyle of the other party? Is true that both party had the right to change each other habit but it takes time.. Time is the major killer for life.. At that moment he gave me a feeling that .. Hmm.. Nvm :P

LEt it go smoothly and see the other side of the person and u will get to know how to compromise and anything..

After a long busy day of work, fianlly got a called from (blabla) out for drink.. no doubt im very tired due to not enough sleep from previous day plus the work happen today but i sense something wasnt right.. so went out to catch up with them.. Indeed . haha.. To let go of some one is hard.. But to force yourself in letting go someone is more hard then anything.. Like once my Buddy told me jus let it go smoothly and naturally, everything will goes back to normal like the past :P There is no need to rush and do it on purpose as time will heal everything.. One door opens the other door closed.. If keep looking back at the closed door, you wont be able to know what other happiness you will recieve in future :) same goes to me.. after a that incident, i've learned.. I know what am looking for in future.. There is no right or wrong that can be measured in Love life but it helps us to grow and learned either is a mistake or a lesson.. and this learning session will be a very precious and important session that will lead you up to another level on looking into another love life.. Most important is that dont let yourself live in the past.. move forward and recieve incoming new event.. If you nv let go naturally, the person you will hurt the most is your next party or yourself when it comes to making a very big decision :P

Well pal, cheerup and more on already :P Take care!! Frens and buddy will always be on your side when u needed the most :P

~=~!! Dun ReaLLy Know How tO disscribe My FeelIng !!~=~

As mentioned, todayw as a very busy day.. today i got to work for about 4 office!! wah siong ah.. keke.. Watever it was, it already done and past!! Today still kind of like there is a kind of feeling kept bothering me but dunno what was that feeling..

Other then my work, suddenly had a kind of old flesh back.. thinking back to those days in the old school.. having a bunch of brothers and fren to mix around.. the way we create trouble, the way we had fun together.. hmmm.. time passes by real fast.. Guess that the last big grow of brother having fun n enjoying outside was during my sec 4 days.. but now.. haha with both nad or even maybe jus one hand could be able to list out all the name.. anyway the best and the strong one survive.. haha

Guess that you can see all the photo on my blog..

Today if friday!! did some gd deed again.. feel very comfort and peace after helping others.. hmm.. still got many thing to learn !! Today guess that there is some one will be joining me with this path that i had chosen to help others.. but after i heard alot more story form my buddy.. i felt very sad and discourage.. Why on earth that pple will wan to help other jus for the sake of money... Is money more important then the feeling of calm n peace? Really dunno how come she got his feeling :P anyway each of us had their own feeling.. maybe is the environment made them felt that way..

Need to find a day sit down to tok to her about the things.. want her to get straight to the point that no joke can be done when choosing this road...

Today really was not a very gd day to me although the work and thing seems to be very smooth. Just had a very strange and weird.. Hmm.. work work work..

Work still cant get it done... time are running out.. Pls let me have the power to temporally stop the time... This week will be safe and smooth.. what about next week?

lets pray hard...

Hmm tml going to attend my sec sch mate wedding... Same age as mi yet settling down already.. how lovely and how stable can they be :P all the best to you my bro shawn.. may you and ur bride everlasting and sweet love all the way..

Haha when will it be my turn to had a understanding and caring partner? If time was not making fun of me i guess i wun be able to have this kind of sad feeling.. anyway its fated :P

got to rest early already.. tml another long and busy day..

~=| Its All AboUT Me |=~

~-`!`-~ Used to be in a big Group ~-`!`-~

!! ReaLly BorIng & stRess !!

Today was another tiring day..

This morning woke up felt so tired.. maybe is because of last night work.. My elder bro son had been sick for almost a week already.. Brought him to doctor about 3 to 4 time but yet still the fever goes on and off.. today after binging him to doc, his fever was 38.5 degee.. Whao.. so damn high.. If coming two day still in this condition, i think need to send him for blood test already.

After the doctor, when to had breakfast together with mum.. How stupid of me!! maybe is in a hurry then forgotten to bring out some document that i had printed out this morning.. No choice got to rush home get it.. Took a cab down to my job site!! 1st job site washing up all the window in the office.. SIONG AH!!! haha.. took mi 2 hr to finish everything in there..

hmmm.. After that rushing down to the other job site at this kallang place.. This job site abit easier but yet still drag till 1.5 hrs...

Hmm.. Felt like we are walking back to those days that we just started out this business.. Seems like some where went wrong.. Is it another test for us to take it? Well, Throw everything to me now asa much as possible!! I Can Recieve it with no Fear and sweat!!!

Tot of sending out msg to hire some worker but i do have drawing to complete.. So after finallise with my buddy, I headed home..

Too tired to start off with my drawing so took a nap.. haha But who knows i took a long nap!! haha really tiring..

Dunno whether is it i'm the one who offended godness or am i really that sway!!

Recieve a call from my buddy telling me that one of my worker cant work tml due to sickness.. Tml already a very long and busy day for me yet such incident happen.. Tml need to settle 6 offices with my buddy but now turns to 7.. No choice had to split a bit.. i go 3 he go 4 loh.. Always that he is the unfair one haha.. sorry ah brother :P

Still now waiting for one of the drawing to render finished inorder to start off another 2 more drawing..

How to improve.. How to get thing done up more better!! Hmm.. need to stay calm, think, and act wisely..

Tomorrow night still got something more important thing to be done at night.. Predicted will very a very damn tiring night for tml.. and yet at this hour i still cant lazy on my bed.. Life is getting more n more hard..

Today actually very into listening to music during the travelling period.. Many flash back again.. How i grew up, how i got things done and learned, how i got into troubled many many etc.. Started to feels that many of the song are actually into my mood nad feeling at different stages of my life.. but song is always a song.. they can sing out your feeling but always cant help you to walk out of that feeling.. Life still needs to goes on.. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for us..

Jia you bah UncLe micK!!!

-=~ Late In the MiddLe NigHt `=-

凌晨两点半，and im still awake.. What to do.. :P today abit gone wild for my mind again..
Hmm.. today was a very TL day haha.. from morning till night time.. actually no mood to blog but i told myself before got to keep myself update.. so..
Today tot can finish up all by drawing but hai.. still stuck cos of my elder bro son.. then got many thing need to settle..
bro sis fren and pal.. really no mood in doing this.. tml right you all a very gd blog k.. gd night!!

`~` What A vEry LonG dAy `~`

Early morning woke up, Got a bad feeling.. This feeling i tot i already get over it.. but it came back again.. wahaha man with aged really thinks alot ya!! But lucky that this feeling goes away very fast too if not i'm dead today..

Early morning went out to work at K-B1 targeted to be finish the cleaning work in 1 1/2 hr but maybe was thinking have to concentrade well in my work.. in about 45 min i finish my job there!! Yeah!! after that rushing down to the other job site at macpherson area..

Had a hard time going there.. Not as in dunno how to go to the place but is jus that the kind of feeling is still there.. On my way there alot of thing flash back to my mind.. Brain started to go wild again. What to do.. still got to face the fact and move on with life :P

Wah this stupid office SIONG ah!! Area consider big but Furniture alot.. wipe and clean, Vaccum and mop!! Phew.. 2 hour but 1 and half hour done!! Beautiful game!! Once against haha.. see when mind are clear and well focus things will perfectly go smooth...

2nd part of my day was sort of interesting and pressure haha!!

1st time having circuit lesson.. Tot i will be calm and steady.. but shit man!! sort of like got pressure but the car inside.. haha now then i know that the car inside the circuit road are far more pressure then the car that are running on road... Although did not got my car "dead engine" but my stupid parallel parking and and reverse parking all into drain.. haha.. Even my instructor also scolded me.. haha "On road teach you parking, and you done so well but come in only you forget everything.." haha shit man!! so "MALU"

Hmm... well come back again need to rush drawing again.. so boring.. hai!!!

What to do.. keke :P

~+= Smooth Sailing For Today =+~

Yeah!! Just got home so tireing :P Rushing here and ther to get all the job done. Happy with today work as everything goes very well and smooth as didnt expected to be.. Thought will have hip-cup here and there!!

Thanks to my 'bros' for the help today.. without them i really gone case ah.. no doubt is a 3 hours work but it really helps me alot...

Hey bro!! easy money ya!! haha..

Weather not that gd today in between rushing job site to job site got caught in rain :( What the fish man!! haha but is ok lah hopefully dun fall sick after that... Once again, today won a very beautiful battle against time!!

Now need to get some rest before i go down to sheng tan helping out..

Tomorrow will be a very exciting day.. rushing and battling against time again ahaha.. Got to run 2 job site and got to finsih them before 2 p.m cos need to rush down to driving center for my circuit lesson!! Time flying real fast!! 3 more weeks to my TP test!! Hopefully can get it done in jus 1st try...

Hmm.. tonight cannot be lazy already.. still got drawing yet to be completed.. target by this come wed have to finish up all my drawing so that i can concentrade more on my own business plan and push my company up to one more level high.. cannot delay my Working partner cum 'bro' time and hope can fulfill his simple wish in short period of time..

Looking at my 'bro' with so worried face i also feel sad... Bro buck up and dont try to think so much.. Lets all the thing goes smoothly and freely!! What will happen for sure will happen!! so let us jus work hard and strive ourself into next level!!

Jia you jia you jia you!!!

Friendly supplies RockS!!!

-+=) A BuSy & TiRing DaY (=+-

Today was a very busy day for me.. Last night slpt at 4 a.m and got up at 9 a.m..

As today we had made some re-organising of our alter table..

Infact yesterday till today was quite a hard time for me to pass as i felt like i got questioned by someone.. Yesterday morning i recieve a sms.. it seems like a very angry or like i did something bad that cause someone into troubled.. Am i that not trusted worthy? Not even an sorry once the picture was cleared from..

Started to feel like really stupid and silly.. hmm..

Anyway it was not an issue anymore.. I got many thing to learn and to do.. got to keep myself clear minded..

Today early morning went to bugis with daddy to pick a Monkey god statue for my house.. i found the ideal statue :p very happy and comfort when i first caught my eyes on it.. Indeed was very smooth and comfort :P After buying all the accessories for the statue, we head down to geyland area to meet other members.. We had our lunch there and of cos chat alot about thing regards on sheng tan :P

Today the weather was some how gd or rather bad as in the rain comes and go.. We went down to sheng tan to do something on the monkey god statue then we headed back home to re organise our alter table :P Guess wat? after the whole proccess of the re-arrangement i felt very calm, peace and comfort.. Last time maybe due to my alter table was in a mess with buddha and other god statue that why always not a very gd feeling in doing anything..

Should i really believe in religious or not? haha i choose to believe..

Finally a busy day have to ends with a great meal.. We went to have a gd meal.. although the food was only about average but it really shows my sincere that they help out me and my family member :P

Got home actually wanted to do the drawing but really tired and lazy.. Tml will be a very busy day to follow up in my JOb.. Lets hope every thing will go smooth and easy for me..

Mind clear soul clear and get things cleared!!

~*= PhEw =*~

Guess where am i now? Hmm.. Over at this resturant waiting for my worker to finish the job..

Stupid Ah Ne!!! Once again i got aeroplane by one of my regular ah ne.. Last min nv turn up for my work.. shit man.. Thought that tonight my partner and me got to DiY wash the kitchen again..

But lucky last min that my buddy partner when out to grab ah ne :P

This bunch of ah ne so daring!! knowing that we last min need man power, the purposely hang themself up and quoted us very high price!! hmm.. I think maybe is lady luck on us and he didnt give up on search for a lower range of ah ne.. We found them!!

A new bunch of ah ne!! although they look abit like inexperiance but better then we had to work on ourself right :)

Tonight i shouldnt got time to sleep already. Sunday mornining need to wake up early to buy some of my stuff and will be busy one whole day.. shit man!! plus this new group of ah ne dunno when they will finish the work. Lets pray hard and hope that they will finish the job early and we can go back rest early.

Thinking back when we started this kitchen clean, it was my partner, me plus one of our part time worker who do the clean.. We were having hard time clean the kitchen.. So oily and hard stained on every corner of the kitchen. We nv give up yet we pushed ourself to the max and get it done. Now finally we made it thru..

Now we need to concentrade well on our sale as well as to provide more better welfare to our worker. Forthe past few weeks, things are not that smooth for us. But no matter what happen we will make it.. and we can do it.. whatever thing we do in the begining for sure there wil be a hard time to go thru.. When time goes but you will be able to see the seed that you planted will start to grow and eventually it will bare many many fruity fruit for you.. when that day comes i definately will think that after all the hardship, it worth planting it.

Jia you and climb as high as possible "Friendly Supplies" !!

Hmmm.. need to start drawing already :P

Boring!! haha

~=) FinaLLy gOt My PC All SeTup (=~

Yeah!! Finally got both my pc setup up!! Now next step will be packing and tidy up my room :P but i think have to wait till next week then can accomplish this difficult task..

Going out to work later!! Boring.. Need to bring my worker to wash kitchen.. Guess that have to be late home again i mean damn late 3+ a.m? haha..

Who wanna Join me at bugis for the cleaning services?

Lucky i still have some drawing to finish up at least i wpn't be that boring sitting there doing nothing :P Yup Die die also have to rush out 2 single line drawing and a few piece of 3D drawing..

Preddicted next week will be a very busy week for me.. from morning got to work till evening for my cleaning service as well as night time have to start meeting some of the design house.. Whao... Seems like very busy but rather then doing nothing.. Its all upto myself to work hard for future not :P

--=Only When Knowledge is Thoughtfully aBsorbed, can it become your own wisdom=--

Time to wake up

Last night was a very memorable night to me as i got punishment by someone..
Didn't even know where went wrong and i got it from him.. so painful wahaha!!
Anyway i shld be punished in that way for not doing alll my best in everyway..

There are so many wonderful and misterious things keep happening in this world and yet i was one of them haha.. can't really accept the facts that i am what i am now. There is a so called spy cam around me nowaday checking on my every move.. SHIT!! I'M ON SPY CAM!!

After a good lecture by him, everything started to change.. My mind and concept, the way of doing things.. Hopefully things will turn as good and as fast as possible.. Not much time for me already :P

Today supposely needed to meet one of my worker to settle some thing but my best partner will handle that for me.. Now what i need to do is get my two computer setup and reformated and need to rush my drawing already!! Felt that i had wasted many many time.. cant chase back time but i'm sure i can keep my working pase more faster to meet the time :P
Ai sie like chim like tat but actually not!! wahaha

Alright!! update later part again.. now have to go makan!! then setup computer then start running my work already :P..

Jia you jia you!!

Felt Glad & console

Alright where should i start?

Hmm.. this few days was not a very gd time for me as i lost a very precious thing in my life.. This precious was very important to me as she is my everything..

After since i lost her, i lost everything.. Not actually totally lost ah.. Just that things are not that smooth and well for me.. my business nearly gone case, my family got some issues going on and about myself im still trying hard to stand up after all this things had happened.

Since 24th of Nov 07, Im dead.. really dead.. till now im still dead.. A few reasons that keep me standing was my family, friends, 'Brother' and of cos a sentence that i will not forget "what if when i really needs you where can i find you". A very strong and powerful artificial heart pumping system that keep my life carry on..

Life ever since was turf for me.. Right now i only can concentrade to get back all my lost and push my business up to another level. Staying focus at all time.. but then it is really hard as once i used to have a very strong mental support from my precious one.. Now.. I got to use artificial heart pumping system already..

Today my precious one ask me again not to treat her so well as it is already over..

No doubt it was a very painful and hurting situation that had happened but i cant really do it.. i cant blame her, cant curse her, cant treat her badly and i still very worried for her.. By right i had to curse her badly or even scold her but just cant do it..

Now i cant do anything i only can stay focus and jus wait.. Hopefully one day i still got the chance to shower her with all my love like i used to..

I'm getting weaker each day.. tired.. used to eat alot but now things changed.. Once i learn from my precious only when you are having your meal happily you will sure gain weight and will have a enjoyable meal.. Right now no matter how many thing i ate it was jus like a daily routine of life, from top go in and come out from bottom..

Cant imagine a person really can change the other party so much.. Talking about love.. everyone is so silly and stupid.. What a powerful weapon on earth.. :P

I will stay well keep myself awake hopefully be there is a chance come back to me or some other one bring me out of the mess and make my heart pump naturally without any instrument.. i dunno and dun dare to think about it any more..

This battle i lost totally without anything left :P

Sooner or later becoming Ah pek mick liao not uncle mick liao :P

Precious one do keep our promises...

Starting to blog

Today is my first time trying to blog out my life on internet..

Will continue afterward as this is a test round n setting up my blog :P