Felt Glad & console

Alright where should i start?

Hmm.. this few days was not a very gd time for me as i lost a very precious thing in my life.. This precious was very important to me as she is my everything..

After since i lost her, i lost everything.. Not actually totally lost ah.. Just that things are not that smooth and well for me.. my business nearly gone case, my family got some issues going on and about myself im still trying hard to stand up after all this things had happened.

Since 24th of Nov 07, Im dead.. really dead.. till now im still dead.. A few reasons that keep me standing was my family, friends, 'Brother' and of cos a sentence that i will not forget "what if when i really needs you where can i find you". A very strong and powerful artificial heart pumping system that keep my life carry on..

Life ever since was turf for me.. Right now i only can concentrade to get back all my lost and push my business up to another level. Staying focus at all time.. but then it is really hard as once i used to have a very strong mental support from my precious one.. Now.. I got to use artificial heart pumping system already..

Today my precious one ask me again not to treat her so well as it is already over..

No doubt it was a very painful and hurting situation that had happened but i cant really do it.. i cant blame her, cant curse her, cant treat her badly and i still very worried for her.. By right i had to curse her badly or even scold her but just cant do it..

Now i cant do anything i only can stay focus and jus wait.. Hopefully one day i still got the chance to shower her with all my love like i used to..

I'm getting weaker each day.. tired.. used to eat alot but now things changed.. Once i learn from my precious only when you are having your meal happily you will sure gain weight and will have a enjoyable meal.. Right now no matter how many thing i ate it was jus like a daily routine of life, from top go in and come out from bottom..

Cant imagine a person really can change the other party so much.. Talking about love.. everyone is so silly and stupid.. What a powerful weapon on earth.. :P

I will stay well keep myself awake hopefully be there is a chance come back to me or some other one bring me out of the mess and make my heart pump naturally without any instrument.. i dunno and dun dare to think about it any more..

This battle i lost totally without anything left :P

Sooner or later becoming Ah pek mick liao not uncle mick liao :P

Precious one do keep our promises...