2011 conclude...

It is easier to say then to be done...
Less then few weeks time and that will be the end of 2011... and soon i guess new resolution has to be made.
Even if today are to be 2012 but to me 2011 was onli just yesterday. time really passes us by not telling you that you left how much time to fulfill your own resolutions.

I can says that beginning of 2011 i had made a big changes in my life.

firstly my strong determination of quiting alcohol..
of cos this is quite a T-juntion for me to choose. very tuff.. maybe to other may feels that im no longer cool enough but to me as long as i can step out of the beer garden, im at a good start...
too many reason for me to swim myself out of the pool of alcohol.

1) im not a very good drinker but at least i still can pour in much into my liver till my liver got exhuasted. and also the after effect.. Realising that i had the problem of getting to work after each and every session of the swimming session in the alcohol but i still enjoying it.. never really think much about it jus keep swimming n swimming till getting drown in the pool...
Worst still i drag pple drowning togerther with me.. lolx..
still remembering those joy that the game lead us to and the amount of alcohol that we gurp down to our tummy and of cos those silly incident happens after different sessions...

2)thinking back on my finiance, it comes to a red light for me.. need to save up alot to settle much much more things...

3) health.... although now is on the emble light better to prevent then to charge at it..

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The very harsh part was that i need to do thing which actually goes opposite the usual way.. for no reason i need to be cool and firm and also i guess i did said out things which actually i say out jus to keep a distance which i mean no harm..
as maybe i know that i dont do that i think i wont be able to step out..

maybe was an excuse but i really mean no harm...
To pple who i hurt you be words, im seriously very sorry about what i had said and what i had done. i really mean no harm or nv ever dun wan to be fren/buddy/bff anymore... you guys still living lively in my heart...
Due to some issues i really need to stop for a while....
i really dun wanna rely on you guys...
Wind and leaf story..
you should know who you are...
i realise i had a problem if i got certian issue i know that u might help me i am very grateful for what you had supported me all this while.. i will never forget the kindness that you offered me before and not saying repay your kindness.. your kindness even this life time i really cant fully repay you... next life time n next next life time i will up the hill down the frying wok...
I realise that i rely or maybe depend to much and im afraid it might turn out to be a bad habit.. that why i choosen a way which i cant really forgive myself...
i need to handle situation on my own already.. if not im jus digging my own grave and will nv learn and grow wisely...
But i will be back with the games....
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2011...
a real turning point in my life.

its not about just the alcohol things..
started to get serious in work..
projects getting more since after april which is good.. at the same time road never being smooth too..
had to endure all the pressure as well..
from each and every encounted with my workers and clients, i learn tons of experiances.
from a soft hearted boss to a semi harsh boss.. from a undecisive boss to a firm decision maker boss..
but still there are many more room for me to grow and take all the experiances.
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had been cutting down lots of my expenses ever since June this year. still i can see the fruit nor the leaf but the seed start sprouding out the roots. i strongly believe that if i keep on watering the seed and taking care well soon i will be able to see the stem then the leaf, flower then the fruits.. target 6 more month to go...

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life is a nv ending learning stages even you are not in school..
my tuitor/teacher are my frens my love one..

you guys groom my life to success each and everyday.. your words, comments, lectures, scolding, your reaction on my behaviour. it makes me realise that when i made mistake and correct me to the right path.. from each and problems i heard from you all it also a learning lesson to me.

i really know what i want in my life now.. thank you my dear frens out there who had supported me and i will be back soon.....

please take good care of yourself.....
Cheers!! Happiness!! Health!! wealth!!