Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Planning Always lose to changes.....

WHen i thinks its time to get back the feeling everything turn out to be not as expected...

being a medium, my fate is to help out other, giving advise and helping out those that needed and trying to save some lost soul out there... but then who will be the one who is coming to save me out of all the things that i gets stuck?

will god really do? as a medium if i cant save myself how can i save pple? for once i try to think in a better way therefore i when into deep forest and hide myself up to get the knowledge of how to be a wise man...

I tot i successful gotten 60% of the wisdom and finally 40% will be when i get out of this lonely forest and feel the world and touch the world. so i tot was the time i make my comeback...

seems like it all wrong.. i left my frens and buddies with all the disappointment when i go so out of control... that makes me a jerk once again with no different from last time... to being a pilot better then a jerk or even both are my strong point....
really got no courage to pick up my phone and apologyise to them...

things will nv go my ways.. in the end i ended up to be the most no use pple.

bad news that i cant break off with my current business partner which company was not doing well and i suggested a break up with my parnter and thing didnot really work out well...

since that there is an outing i just wanted to try to enjoy myself out with my buddies and not to think about that issues 1st.. in the end i got it back...

life reallly sometime torturing in a way that sometime so much envy that how come pple had that kind of smooth and happy life and yet i got stuck in no where even if im i wan to do better???

when i think i dont do somehow it become im a man without words...
but when i think and i done situation goes hit me double where i offended more pple surrouding me!!

changed changed changed i used to tell my self i did changed but after since i realise im still at the starting point...

im always the lemon biskuit since young whereby i always caught in the middle of my family like im the satalite... now even worst that i become the oreo biskuit that kena dip into the glass of milk and the satalite got shock with spark flying out every where before it goes dead..

No doubt now the whoole satalite was down.. but i wun give up so easily.. i will find ways to make it functioning again... it jus the matter of time... if one day cant get it done then one month time to fix it if one month time cant fix it i will take a year.. im not losing out anymore at this point of time.... because i have being sending out the wrong frequency and signal all this time...
and i finally realise my mistake....

believe it or not i will do it...
things that i messed up in term of life, work and many other... i will recollect it back bit by bit.....

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