...2008 Jan 12th...
EXPLODED!!!!
War Started!! Warfare of Leow Family already fighting.. BOmbing Here and there!! Is it safe to stay in this war zone?? Am i suppose to hide in the bomb shelter or stand in between them to stop this war!!!
i had being the bomb defuser for so many time whenever is going to explode.. Now cannot stop i cant defuse le.. Everything jus exploded.. i failed my job in my position..
Everyone seems to be so tired whether they are attcking or defending and the peace maker.. Very tired.. very very tired...
Sometime how i wish i was like my younger brother.. what ever things happened he wont know.. Cos he was not staying in this war zone for a period of time.. When u dont know anything u won't need to bother or get involve in it..
Why and how come human cant jus stay together happily.. It is because of jealous, money, or personal character? Life getting more n more dull..
Jus recover from some incident and here come another one.. A test from GOD?
Oh come on GOD.. If you treat us jus like a dummy or white mouse, Pls Take us away from this world as soon as possible rather then to give us life then torture us in such a way!! Don't you think that you gone too far already?? For those that respect you and believe in you tell you all their problem or tell you their joy but why do you jus put the problem on the other party and see is there anyother outcome? but why dun you use all their joy and happiness on you stupid project!!!
SOmetime you will find that we dont cherish our life.. but who made us have that emotion and thinking? Is it you my god?
All this while i thought i am the closest to my parent yet now my mum had a big issue yet i dunno know it!! out there eveyone tot that im the best, i think maturely, im the filial one.. They made me believe that im am one of the describtion above.. but today the exploded bomb let me see through alot of thing.. actually im not.. im jus another unfilial son.. hai.. i cant gave them wat they expected and i cant stop this family for going into war.. im not a gd brother as well.. im jus nothing..
Once again i felt that im really jus a empty shell.. im jus nothing actually.. Im not the hero nor bad guy in this family...
Each and every one has it own family problem going on.. I'm sure that those got sandwitch in between and act like messenger will know how i feel.. Am i sad, am i sorrow or am i numb.. This family story how will it ends? will it got a gd ending or a bad ending..
Its always hard to be a gd guy.. and its always good guy get it 1st.. and always there is misunderstanding and there emerge a bad guy.. and the bad guy always got hated by others..
Messy messy messy!! messy life i got haha.. will get crazy soon !!
Hoping for the best now.. let wait for the stormy days to go.. after each and every stormy day beautiful rainbow will come :P
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